I have a rubberband ball, it is small and insignificant

Each rubberband, like each person that I meet

will represent those people I care most about.

And it's name is going to be, leonela M.M

I start with me, for what other being can  be of more importance

A bit selfish I know, but still we all need some arrogance in this world

I wil surround myself with words of beauty

words that truely represent who I am and who I will become.

Then comes my famaily, not just the immenent but also those from afar

my parents who  have tried to hard to raise me

My grandparents who care for me from the heavens

and all those members who have give me love.

Then comes my beloved, yes that guy that makes my heart skip a beat

I don't know if his name is current, or if it will change with time

But he has to be there, for he is the one that will complete me.

A man so gentle and caring, so understanding and so "him," whatever that means

Then comes my friends and professors, yes those who teach me

either on purpose, cuz it's their job, or without knowing, for I am a sponge

from my friends in kindergarden, you'll always be in my heart and memories

to my friends of the present, who I love dearly and love to laugh with

Of course there will be some rubberbands for those who disliked me

for my enemies, for I give them thanks for all the extrat strength I gained

If it wasn't for my enemies I wouldn't have worked so hard to prove them

I am a better person, a smarter person, a bigger person, a person worth to know

Last but never least, a rubberband for my guardian angels.

their wings cover me in sadness, giving protection from things that really matter

My God that gives me unconditional love, and that accepts me for me

Even with all my faults, who only gives and doesn't expect much

Except that I give myself the opportunity to grow and follow in his footsteps

This is my rybberband. This is my hope. From my cowokers to that person down the street

to all the things the surround me, like birds trees and even the sky

From the books I have read, to the movies I have cried to

My rubberband is going to be the one and only, Leonela

I was scared at first, wondering what do

Should I hide and run away, or say what’s true

Then I learned to accept and just go with the ride

I have a huge smile on my face today

Because I know that you’ll be here one day.

I imagine your lovely face,

Event he day you go out on your first date

But most importantly I imagine you in my arms

So independent, in need of my care

Then I think about all that we’ll share.

I see you at the playground

With all our little friends

Wondering why I would even think

To hide something so dear to me

You have a smile that breaks hearts

I know deep down your just the best

I see you graduating and becoming great

A doctor, a lawyer or what you wish

For I’ll be here no matter choice

Just try to keep to one thing

Because I’m not the rich, my darling

I imagine your eyes, just likes your dads

And there is that hair that always sticks up!

I imagine you and I, always together

Never missing a beat, never missing a chance

Because we were meant to be.

I imagine the sadness in my heart

The day I have to let go

So then you can do the same as me

And begin a new life or tragedy

But don’t worry no matter the outcome

You’ll have a friend a mother that comforts.

So with these lines I will in grave

The love I have for you my child

Even unborn I can see your smile

And all the happiness to bring to me

For we are really meant to be.

That is all I can say after this very long day

I am complete and I am the same

I love romance and love to love

I love to give, but I can’t forgive

My music is that of love, and my wings

Though black can make me fly

In the sky so very high!

I love to smile and feel the breeze

Inside me I feel so complete.

Some say I am a good poet

Yet I don’t even know it.

My passions are many

But not many actually get me

There are those who judge me

Because I follow tradition

Not leaving home and following rules

Yet look at me, for I am happy

Don’t go to parties

Yet I am safe and sound

I’m not independent

Yet I have food and shelter

Why is it so hard to understand?

That we each have different restrictions

Some don’t drink, some don’t leap

I choose to follow the rules and be me.

I love the library and I prefer

A walk around the great big park

Then a party, down the block.

With a friend to chat and to have a snack.

Best of all, I’ll be there

For those who need an ear.

I love to teach and love to counsel,

Even though I am alone

I have to admit I love to talk!

As I watched tv something hit me

It’s not about the old fashion love

Or about the latest philosophy

But something that needs to be solved

Today I learned a valuable lesson

One that will not leave me till death

It’s about all us humans and peasants

It goes beyond the regular theft.

I know we all have gone through this

When we are faced with an enemy

Do we forgive their and put down our fist

Or do we retaliate till they shout defeat.

Our enemies are humans that are lost

Humans who believe

Who breath and most importantly

They feel pain and look like us

How can us Christians pledge the word of God

When in fact we do not what he preaches

But we do what our foes did.

Torture, kill and judge those who hurt us

Instead of being model, we hide behind titles

And state it is okay to hurt others

We say it is for the best, “the greater good”

I say it is all lies, for did not Jesus said,

To turn the other cheek?

How can we hurt, just because we were hurt?

How can we fight, just because they fight?

How can we justify all the things we have done

When in fact we are no better then they are.

Torture or speak?

Smaller or bigger?

Law or ethnics?

Humans or followers?

So before you judge another

And before you strike thee other

Don’t forget that you are him

For he is only human.

I have watched all the movies

And seen most of the shows

Yet are they real?

For as I seat in this train

All I can see is not on t.v.

Here the people are real

With a life that is not an ideal

Eye brows and hair not even done

And look she has hair on her arms

Men that are fat, yet look much better

Than those men on the big screen

I see a child that is not even close

To those perfect children I have seen

I see a mother, daughter, or even wife

That look as the they want it to end

As I sit in train I think about this;

Our tv creat the ideal

And we pressure to follow

But the cost is to much even for us

For there on my right

Is that girl so skinny

And right there is a guy

With muscles of Tarzan!

They seem to be together

They seem to a pair

Yet they are arguing

About all their despairs!

A hot chick and a hot guy

Not really happy

Yet this what society

Has made for my future kids!

Not a world of acceptance

Where we all live peace

But a world of judgment

Where masks are only seen

What will happen when my child

Tries to be like those guys on tv?

Will they get hurt in the violence

Or will they die trying to be ideal?

I don’t know you,

But like this unperfected poem

I rather have something with no rhyme

Then the future of suffering!

A bird in the free was captured today,

Near an old barn door not even in the way.

Nobody knows if she used to have a home

Or was born free, just that she was all alone.

Her feathers were white with a dash of blue.

She has a lovely song to sing exactly at noon.

She seemed to love her new little swing

So much that she began to sing.

I see her without a new care

For there is shelter and some food to share

No need to hunt, no need to worry

No need to feel so very sorry.

Yet in her heart she still remembers

The feeling of air through her feathers.

The view up high and all her flights,

Especially of all the lovely sights.

Now she has a new found home

And even a lovely song of being alone

Not by choice for she was free

But now the bars won’t even let her see.

I found a guy,

He makes me smile

All day, all night.

He makes my world

So safe, so great,

Just like a dream

That feels so right.

He has his ways,

He has his days,

But at the end

We always mend.

My dreams come true

My world so great

How I dream that

Our love will never end.

The truth is so real

Creeping in the darkness

Trying to be revealed.

It’s a truth nobody wants to hear

Yet it known throughout the earth.

Divider of friends,

Divider of nations,

It is a secret we all try to hide.

With a society who’s goals are too high

Act like this but we are really like that

When will the truth come to pass?

How long can our lie last?

Is it coming or is it ending

Or maybe it’s just standing

It’s waiting for the moment

Of complete obliviousness

Trying to trick or to defeat us?

When are we strongest?

When we lie or when the truth comes by

It not a matter of honesty but a matter of reality

It’s a truth we are to blind to see.

It can mean destruction of humanity

Or maybe the revelation to save us all

Either way we all know that we don’t want to know

So here is the statement I meant to make

It’s about the truth within our nation;

The truth hurts and it stings

But at the end we win our liberty.

She is standing at the clearings between two great oak trees. Her eyes are on the wide skies that open up to the heavens. She is silent and hear all. After year of training she has finally learned to become one with everything. Yet, tonight is different. The skies has no clouds to cover it's naked body. And the moon is reveling every part possible to the naked eye.

Tonight every star has its own story to tell, and the loudness of the night is almost unbarring. She looks into the sky for the answers that her hearts yearns for. From the simplest of questions to the most complex ideas. She has on only a light strip of cloth around her chest and another around her addomen. Both are made to told tight and cover those delicate areas of a female.

She closes her eyes, given herself freely to the gods and not thinking back to anything. Her arms are out ready to embrace the very soul of the earth and all that is around her. Standing there in silence as the wind caresses her face, and the moon lightens her figure.

Slowly she lowers her arms to her side and as she begins to look down, the viewer see's a small tear fall to the grown. It drops with the strength of thunder, but slower then the change of day. It progress is that of fire trying to make it's own path no caring of the consequences.

Next to her is a young man. Not like any seen near or far. His eyes with the color of fire, while her's of water. He stands and keeps his distance as the she cries. Not knowing when it can end or knowing when it will begin. Her silence is obsolete, her body is frail. Her mind is lost in the labyrinth of the mind and soul. He stands, as she falls.

In a silent agreement they sit side by side. Not knowing what the future will bring, not caring what the past has brought. They sit and sit, letting the night go by as a bird taking flight. He reaches for her hand and she hold on tight. He looks in her eyes and she responds back with t he same gesture. One look, one truth, one promise. They talk without speaking, the speak without words.

They stand, they solute, and the leave. Two paths, two lives, two distinct destiny. she loves him, he loves her, but their love was not meant to be. They leave with the unspoken promise to come back, even if back means after death.

They leave with power to withstand any obstacle, they leave with the hope to never have to say goodbye, but they also leave with guilt, fear, and silence. they leave, but will they come back to this lonely clearing where all dreams can come true? Will they be able to remember the unspoken truth or will it be forgotten like past generations?

Leonela Morales

Curently in engaged, believe it or not.

Enroled in College: Joh Jay College; CUNY

Major: English
Minor: Philosophy

Classes from Monday to Thursday

GPA:3.446

Classes droped: 1

Classed Passed: all

Sites I am currently envovled: myspace, xanga, yahoo, ebay, and youtube

Things I love to do: Read, write, go to school, go to the park, laugh, make jokes, please everyone, play with dogs, go online, chat, explore, go to the movies, play board games, help others, and go on adventure.

Things I don't like to do: cry, get mad, feel depressed, be at fault, feel guilty, defending myself, and feel down

Things I do when sad: watch tv, listen to the radio, take a shower, clan the house, and have some chocolate

Favorites: movies; adventure, romance, comedy, scifiction, fantasy, comic, reality
 books; romance, scifiction, and fantasy
 music; romance, oldies
 food; italian, mexican, american
 clothing; all except "popular stuff"
 tv shows; ANIME, Shakugan no shan, Naruto, family matters, friends, fosterhome for  imaginary friends, Full house, sesame street, animal planet, Aaron stone, zack and  cody, phil of the future, and many more.

Not so favorite: anything that has to do with horror

characterristics: well that is a hard question. I am smart, intelligent, strong willed, stubburn, annoying, funny, caring, loving at times, get pissed off easily, open minded, love sex, love talking about sex, fear alot, thinker, beautiful to an extent, and a great person to meet. I am also shy and quiety, but when I know am confident I don't care who is the way, I will say what I feel is right.

Physical: mediam hight, brown eyes, long dark hair with no valume, glasses, long legs, big butt, good size breast, size 7 in feet, and with love handles. lol.

This is me, so who are you?